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okay here's some feelings that i can't get a hold on.
i miss you so fucking badly, like you didn't even call out my name and now i miss the way it feels when you did it. more deeply today, as time moves forward on this side of eternity.

your existence still lingers around me, also reminds me of the old us, got stuck in a safe place and struggling to put those feelings aside in order to maintain a relationship. i know that i need you in my whole life, but at the same time i want to avoid and practically lobotomize myself just to forget everything about us too.

do you see my issue?

i'm so over forcing these things and having high hopes for you.
in torn.
i'm so torn.
now that's the stuff.

i want you to face it forever.

2023/11/18 royalpain

16:31